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  I ended the kiss before I could get too carried away and smiled when he muttered a curse. I licked my lips, savoring the sweet taste of him and then looked over to where Hudson sat watching us, his eyes dark and hooded with desire. Seeing his heated reaction gave me the confidence I needed and I crooked my finger at him, inviting him in the same way he had when I’d caught him and Isaac kissing.

  Hudson didn’t run away like I had, however. Instead, his lips pulled up in a wolfish grin and he rose from his seat and sauntered towards us. The look in his eyes was predatory and I felt Isaac’s body shiver against mine as he looked over his shoulder, watching the man who would make us his prey.

  I felt like I was stuck in a dream, one that I never wanted to wake up from. My head was spinning with the unbelievable knowledge that Matt, the man I had secretly had a crush on for years, actually wanted me too. And that kiss! I had spent nearly every night wondering what it would be like to feel his lips on mine, his body pressed against me in a passionate embrace, but the reality was so much better than I could’ve ever imagined.

  Matt’s kiss was different from Hudson’s, but every bit as toe-curling. Hudson’s kisses were all-consuming, like he wanted to feast on me and devour me whole. His kisses left me shaken and weak in the knees. The kiss I shared with Matt was just as passionate, but in a completely different way. Instead of pulling everything he could from me, Matt poured himself into our kiss, filling me with all of the want and need he had inside of him. More than ever, I wondered what it would be like to have both of them at the same time. To allow Hudson to take what he wanted from me while Matt filled me back up.

  In the flashing lights of the club, I could see the evidence of our kiss on Matt’s swollen, red lips and I wanted to pull him towards me for another, not caring that others might be watching. Matt’s attention had been drawn to something behind me and I glanced over my shoulder to see what it was. Goose bumps broke out across my skin when I saw Hudson coming our way and the look on his face told me that he had one goal in mind.

  Hudson wanted to lay claim.

  I felt flushed and shaky and I wondered how it was possible that I was still standing, much less moving to the music. I moved my hands down to grip Matt’s biceps in order to steady myself as Hudson approached. Matt reached one hand up to cup my chin, turning my head so I was looking back at him.

  “Are you okay, Isaac?” he asked gently.

  I wasn’t sure I could speak just then so I simply nodded. Matt searched my face, looking for any sign that I wasn’t telling the truth, but he must’ve believed me because he bent down to brush his lips against mine once more. It was just a whisper of a kiss, but I knew it was his way of reassuring me.

  Just then, I felt Hudson’s body press up against mine. Our height difference had his denim-covered erection pushing against my lower back and I gasped in surprise. I couldn’t see Hudson’s face from my position, but the look on Matt’s face said it all.

  Matt’s gray eyes had turned dark and smoky as they looked at the man behind me and I could feel his own erection straining against my belly. Hudson’s hands landed on my waist, his fingers digging into my hips in a gentle tug as if he wanted me as close as possible to him. I had no problem with that whatsoever.

  Trapped between the two men, my senses were filled with the combined scent of them. It was both citrusy and spicy and completely intoxicating. The heat from each of their bodies had me sweating and I wondered how I hadn’t burst into flames already. Matt’s hands moved from my waist, giving Hudson more room and I wished I could see where his hands were.

  “I think perhaps we should move this to somewhere more private,” Hudson suggested. His deep baritone voice rumbled from his chest into my back and traveled throughout my body until I could feel it tingling in my scalp. Matt nodded his agreement and then looked down at me. I could feel Hudson’s hot breath against my neck and then his lips pressed against my skin and a shiver wracked my entire body.

  “Yes,” I whispered hoarsely.

  Matt and Hudson stepped away from me then and I was suddenly assaulted with the lights and sounds of the crowded club. I had forgotten that we weren’t alone, too caught up in the touch and feel of the two men I was with to worry about what everyone would think about the three of us being together. My eyes darted to the table where our friends sat, but instead of looks of outrage or condemnation, I was met with curiosity, happiness, and acceptance.

  Hudson and I followed Matt over to the table where Hudson announced that we were leaving. We took turns saying our goodbyes and wishing the band safe travels. When Hudson went to hug Rylie, I heard Rylie whisper something to Hudson about having lots to talk about at their next session. Hudson whispered something back to him that I couldn’t hear, but it made Rylie laugh.

  I shouldn’t have been surprised that our friends were so accepting of different types of relationships; they were all very open-minded individuals. Still, it was a relief to know that their reactions weren’t going to be an issue while the three of us took the time to figure out what exactly was happening between us. Matt stopped us before we reached the front door.

  “I came here in a cab. Should I call one before we step back out into the craziness?” His words reminded me of the frenzied fans who were waiting just outside the doors.

  “I drove. Are you guys okay with going to my place? I don’t live far,” Hudson offered.

  I looked to Matt, wondering if he would change his mind, but he was already nodding at Hudson, a look of determination written all over his face. I agreed and Hudson turned and spoke to one of the security guards who escorted us outside. The crowd’s excitement picked up when they saw us leaving and they fired questions at us, one right after the other, trying to find out anything they could about what their favorite band was doing inside the party. We kept our heads down as the guard had instructed and soon we were climbing into Hudson’s SUV.

  We made small talk, mostly about the center, as we drove to Hudson’s place, but the air around us remained thick with tension. I was surprised when Hudson pulled into the parking garage of a sleek high-rise building in the heart of the city. I shouldn’t have been shocked to find that Hudson had money, after all, he was one of the best therapists in the country with many clients who were well known politicians and celebrities, but it was easy to forget because Hudson was just so down to earth.

  We followed Hudson to a set of elevators and climbed inside. There was no one else around and Hudson hit the button for the seventeenth floor then turned to us. He looked at me and smiled and I felt some of the tension leave my body. I glanced at Matt and saw him looking at Hudson. He was chewing on the inside of his lip as he stared at him in concentration.

  “Have you changed your mind?” Hudson asked him. I held my breath as I waited for Matt’s response. I prayed that wasn’t the case, but he’d been scared off before and I still didn’t know what had been holding Matt back in the first place.

  “No, I’ve just been thinking,” Matt answered seriously.

  “What about?” Hudson asked, relaxing back against the wall when he saw that Matt wasn’t going to bolt.

  “The two of you have kissed,” Matt said, glancing at both Hudson and me. There was no reason to respond because he already knew the answer to that so we just stared at him, waiting for him to continue.

  “You and I have kissed,” he stated, turning to look at me. His voice had taken on a husky tone and the look in his eyes grew heated. I licked my lips at the memory of Matt’s mouth merging with mine. I wanted to feel that again. I wanted to slide my tongue inside and spend hours exploring all the flavors he had to offer. I was pulled out of my trance when he moved his gaze to Hudson.

  “But I haven’t gotten to taste you yet,” Matt pointed out and I felt a jolt of excitement at the thought of having a front row seat while the two hottest men in the world kissed for the first time. I watched the sexy smirk that formed on Hudson’s lips and I nearly came in my jeans.

  “I’m right
here,” he told Matt, holding his arms out to his sides in a come and get me gesture.

  I was surprised at first because I’d been expecting Hudson to take charge of the situation like he usually did when he was with me, but it was like he sensed what a big step it was for Matt to even be there with us and wanted him to be the one to make the first move. My chest warmed at the knowledge that this was more than just sex for Hudson. He cared about Matt and wanted to make sure he was okay with his decision.

  Matt hesitated at first as if he were still deciding and then he was moving forward and I watched in awe as he reached for Hudson, gripping the front of his shirt and slamming his mouth over the taller man’s. Hudson didn’t waste any time as his hands began to run up and down Matt’s back, eagerly. I knew what it was like to kiss each of them and so I understood the intense pleasure they each were experiencing.

  Watching the raw passion between the two sexy men had my cock straining painfully against the zipper of my jeans and I reached down and pressed the palm of my hand against it so I wouldn’t embarrass myself before we even made it inside Hudson’s home. Fortunately, the elevator stopped just then and the two of them broke apart, chests heaving as they struggled to catch their breath.

  Matt grabbed my hand as we exited the elevator, keeping me close to his side. Hudson pulled his keys from his pocket and led us to a door at the end of the hallway. He held the door open for us and I looked around as I walked in. The condo was designed in an open floor plan with real hardwood floors throughout. The living room had a stone fireplace, black leather furniture, and sliding glass doors that led to a balcony which I was sure provided a breathtaking view of the city.

  The kitchen was decorated in stainless steel appliances and a marble-topped island contained barstools for sitting. A set of stairs led to a loft which I assumed was where Hudson slept. All in all, Hudson’s home was modern, sleek, and sophisticated, just like the man that lived there.

  “Would you like anything to drink?” Hudson asked.

  “No, thank you,” “Water, please,” Matt and I answered at the same time.

  I perched on the edge of the couch as Hudson walked into the kitchen and Matt took the seat next to me. My mouth suddenly felt dry as the reality of what was about to happen, of what I was hoping would happen, began to sink in. My breathing increased with all the emotions warring inside me.

  Excitement, happiness, desire, and fear all fought for dominance within me. I didn’t fear either of the men, in fact, I’d never felt safer. I wanted to be with them, but it was the fear of the unknown that had me trembling. What if I make a fool of myself or do something wrong?

  I didn’t realize I’d begun fidgeting until Matt covered my hands with his own. I looked up at him and he gave me a small smile. Matt’s eyes were gentle and full of understanding. In his eyes, I saw my new lover, but I also saw my friend, the first man who had ever made me feel safe and cared for.

  “We don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do,” he promised and I believed him. I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that if I wasn’t ready, I could say so and neither man would get upset or hold it against me.

  “No, I want this. I want to be with you; with both of you,” I assured him.

  He searched my face for a moment and then he reached up, his fingers tracing a line along my jaw. His hand kept moving until it cupped the back of my neck and he pulled me forward. I went willingly and our mouths met in a tantalizing kiss that made me want to strip him bare and explore every inch of him with my tongue.

  All those nights spent dreaming about what it would be like to be held by Hudson and Matt, to feel their weight on top of me, their bodies merging with mine. I couldn’t believe it was about to come true and I had to remind myself to slow down and savor it in case this was the only chance I ever got.

  Matt’s tongue dipped inside my mouth and I groaned against him as his flavor burst across my tongue. He started to pull back, but I followed him, raising up on my knees so I could lean over him, taking control of the kiss. Matt’s hands grabbed at my waist, but instead of pushing me away, he pulled me closer until I was forced to straddle his lap.

  My fingers ran over his jaw, memorizing the texture of the scruff that was there before they traveled higher until they ran through his silky curls. Matt moved his hands to cup my ass, kneading my cheeks in his firm grip. I cried out as he lifted his hips, causing our erections to rub against each other. Our tongues swirled around each other in a synchronized dance and I lost myself in the feel and taste of him.

  I jolted in Matt’s arms as I felt a second set of lips against the back of my neck, but then I relaxed as Hudson’s hands reached around and began slowly unbuttoning my shirt. Matt pushed his groin up against mine adding a delicious pressure against my cock and I whimpered with the need for more. More friction, more kisses, more everything.

  It was an odd feeling to want to be in the moment, while at the same time wishing I could watch from afar so I could see everything, take it all in and catalogue it in my memory to be played over and over again for years to come. I couldn’t imagine anything ever being better than that moment, but I was wrong. I was so wrong.

  Hudson peeled my shirt off and Matt immediately leaned forward, swiping his tongue up the column of my neck. My head fell back with a groan, landing on Hudson’s shoulder. Hudson slid his hands over my chest and down my stomach, the tips of his fingers teasing the waistband of my jeans. Matt’s tongue found my nipple and swirled over it, teasing it until it stood at attention before he took it between his wet lips and sucked hard.

  I gasped. Having never had anyone play with my nipples before, I had no idea that they were such an erogenous zone for me. I felt like I was discovering new pieces of myself and it was all at the hands of these two men.

  “You are so beautiful,” Hudson whispered, his warm breath against my ear causing a ripple of goose bumps to break out over my skin.

  I felt drunk on the unbelievable things they were doing to my body. I turned my head in search of him and Hudson found my mouth with his, licking at my lips until I opened to him, allowing him entry. He sucked on my tongue at the same time Matt moved to my ear and began to nibble at the tender flesh beneath my ear.

  Hudson’s lips left mine and I groaned in frustration until I saw where he was headed next. He cupped the back of Matt’s head and tugged him forward. The two of them began to make out over my shoulder and I reached down, cupping my cock roughly through my clothes, trying to resist the urge to come. It wasn’t easy when I could see their tongues sweeping inside each other or the way Matt bit down on Hudson’s lip, gently pulling on it with his teeth and eliciting a deep groan from Hudson that vibrated against my back.

  Hudson’s hand came up and held the back of my head as he drew me towards them. The three of us shared a kiss, full of passion and discovery as our tongues explored each other, and I was amazed at how very right it felt to be kissing two men at once. I wasn’t sure how much longer I would be able to hold off my orgasm though so I broke away, my chest heaving as I gulped in air.

  Hudson reached around my waist for the button of my pants, but Matt put his hand over Hudson’s stopping his movements. Matt looked at me and I could see beyond the heavy lust and need in his eyes, the seriousness of whatever was on his mind.

  “Isaac, have you ever done this before?” he asked gently.

  Hudson stiffened slightly behind me and I felt my face heat with embarrassment. I must have done something to fuck up already. How else would Matt know how completely inexperienced I was? I wanted to curse my lack of knowledge, but at the same time, I was glad that I had waited to share such an intimate moment with the two of them.

  Unable to speak around the lump in my throat, I shook my head once. Matt must’ve seen my distress because his eyes immediately softened and his hands came up to cup my face. The look in his eyes was almost tender as he spoke.

  “Don’t be embarrassed, you didn’t do anything wrong. I just want to be sure that thi
s is really something you want to do,” Matt explained.

  My eyes burned with the knowledge that even in that moment when it would have been so easy to just lose ourselves in the needs of our bodies, Matt was still watching out for me, making sure I was protected, just as he’d done since the day I met him.

  “We can do as little or as much as you’re comfortable with,” Hudson said behind me and I turned my head so I could look in his eyes.

  He stared back at me with a gentle look that left no doubt as to the sincerity of his words. They cared about me as a person and that knowledge was what solidified the decision in my mind. I wanted these two men more than I wanted my next breath and I was tired of waiting.

  “I’m absolutely positive,” I answered, my voice steady and sure. They shared a look over my shoulder and then Hudson asked me something that made me want to bury my head in Matt’s chest.

  “Have you ever had anything inside you before? Your fingers or a toy perhaps?” he asked.

  It was strange that after everything I’d been planning on doing with them that Hudson’s question would seem so unbelievably personal, but I just wasn’t used to talking about sex with anyone else, especially not about what I had ever done or not done to myself. Deciding that I should be able to talk to my lovers about that sort of thing, I decided to answer honestly.

  “Just my fingers a few times.” My face felt like it was on fire and I was sure I resembled a tomato at that point, but I was grateful when neither man laughed at me, not that I’d expected them to.

  “Thank you for telling us,” Matt said. “We weren’t trying to embarrass you, we just needed to know so we could slow things down; take care of you properly.”

  A slow burn started low in my belly at the idea of how the two of them would take care of me and my embarrassment was replaced with a renewed desire to share myself with my new lovers. My lovers. I liked the sound of that, liked the sense of ownership and belonging it brought to mind.